old love new

Kissing him

Kissing him,

Takes my breath away

And reminds me of a time of when he and I were royalty 

Kissing him

 Makes my body turn to water 

Allowing me to seep into his pores

Cause he’s sweating me 

I feel the pulsating of his heart beating up against me

As I flood his blood stream

And travel to all the parts of him that I’ve learn to love

And that I cause to throb

Kissing him

I’m feeling myself melt into his blackness  

Swirling into the ingredients that makes him complete 

Fulfilling my every need

Together we become a culinary masterpiece

Kissing him, 

Tasting every morsel of his being rush thru me

The warmest of fire burns in me

Ecstasy

With his lips

I’m in flamed,

Flames are in me,

Kissing him

Is hot like the sun…

It sends my mind off into oblivion 

I loose my mind,

I loose my mind as he kisses me

In them places forgotten 

Kissing him

Takes me out of myself

I feel

I see my hands pawing at him

And he at me 

I know his eyes are open.

Social Media. and our girls.

American girls are being bombarded with sexual overtures. Our girls are becoming overly conscious of their looks much earlier. Many of them are beginning diets to be slimmer to resemble idols in movies, TV, music video and video games. Magazines, television and social media have become their reliable source for information that they seek intently and unintentionally. All because our girls are spending more time in front of technology and less time in the presence of a live person.

Musicians have been sending subliminal messages in their lyrics forever. Songs have become the gateway to the curiosity of our youth encouraging sex, drinking and drug use. Videos makers have been monopolizing the market with highly sexual displays of erotic and exotic women barely dressed all while gyrating to a beat that disguises lyrics applauding all things that we are trying to conceal from our children until they are ready.

The music industry, has taken our girls hostage, at young ages by placing before them in videos women posed as their peers as sexual objects. What they see is young beautiful girls that they want to be like showing their breast and rear ends. “Shaking it like a Polaroid picture”.

This hype in sex, being directed towards our girls is on the rise. The American Academy of Pediatrics, Sexuality Contraception and the media, 2001 says that “Of the roughly 14000 references to sex a teen will see on television each year, only a small fraction(165) will include any reference to abstinence or delay of sex, birth control, risk of pregnancy or sexual transmitted diseases. Obviously girls bear the risk of pregnancy that boys don’t, but girls are also more likely to contract STD s than boys.

Video games have our girls, looking at woman as walking talking “Barbie dolls”,highly sexualized being abused bought and sold all apart of the game. Example, GRAND THEFT AUTO some parts of the game include the depiction of woman as prostitutes and strippers. Girls are being shown how to sell their bodies for money. Sex and violence are earning them points. Boys are playing this and thinking it’s okay, because it’s okay in the game.

The body of the woman has been portrayed negatively to sell products. Our bodies have sold things we as woman will never use. We have been stripped down from what we have become in all the first of womankind and pushed back to be just sexual bodies in our undies.

Today girls are continuously being hit in the face by glamorous celebrity examples of young pregnancy. Even when they are not married, they are being shown as beautiful, young and powerful. Teenage girls see those examples as something they want. So they become pregnant to gain the same attention from their boyfriends, peers and family.

MTV has taken this to another level my including in their line up, 16 and Pregnant. This is a reality show that actually follows a teen through her pregnancy and after, to show the complication of the surreal experience.

The National Campaign to Prevent Teen and Unplanned Pregnancy, conducted a survey that proved to a point, that the show 16 and Pregnant, influenced at least half of their viewers positively. It made teenage girls more aware of the risk of pregnancy. And they were able to see what could happen to them in a place, where they were comfortable watching.

The media will continue to send out mature images to the immature viewer. It’s the families job to prepare teenagers for the “real world”. Media has been set up to keep the celebrity life, glamorous during all normal life experiences that’s how they keep you interested and believing in the “fairy tale”.

Times have changed. Girls no longer settle down, marry and start raising a family, right out of high school. Young woman today, are taking advantage of many opportunities available to them. Having babies today doesn’t immediately equate to marriage, it may mean, college or vocational training.

Our girls have choices. They are unstoppable. We have to teach them this, by doing the same ourselves and by leaving the door open for discussion.

The media will always attempt to keep us all in the loop. Filling us up with, the need to know everything about everyone. The need to have the latest and greatest as it hits the stores. and need to know what we should look, taste and how we should feel.

Our girls are seeing celebrities as role models. We have to take this job back. They are basing everything on what they look like. Never taking in consideration what that celebrity may be about outside of the lives they may live, in the medias eyes.

Parents must save our girls. All Social media and television must be monitored. Not rewarded with our girls innocents and youth.

got dreams…

In this journey to you, remember i too have them, while looking for you.
Got Dreams….

Overflowing in my cup
Spilling over running down my legs
Creating speed
With legs that agree
I got dreams
And my dreams
Got “baby” dreams
my “baby” dreams
Got day dreams
All starting with a song, picture, smell a feeling in the air
I got the dreams
Adding multiplying and dividing
Into new dreams
Spreading out in brackets to win
I’ve got dreams,
What u got?
My dreams are bank
Laid and paid in full
These dreams keep COMING, coming and coming
Having me humming a whole new song
Smiling a full toothy grin
, my dreams stream, commercial free
More dreams inside of me
Mo. dreams, mo. dream, mo. dreams
I’ve got dreams to share,
Of travel, business, music, HAIR…
I dream wide awake
AND AS I SLEEP DEEP
Dreams be creeping up on me
Seeping into my pores
I STAND BEFORE YOU
Sweating dreams shining dreams
Letting them take me,
I am surrender to my dreams
ALLOWING THEM TO overflow run down my legs AND catch speed…
Yes… I am reminding you.
.I’V E GOT THEM DREAMS…
Causing me to wear 3 D glasses
My dreams be “popping and locking” as I’m beat boxing beats
Salsa–in tapping and wobbling dreams
I’m building muscles flexing dreams “oiled up” posing dreams .my dreams are design agricultural landscaped planted blossoms dreams,
I’m chilling selling snowball dreams
Sipping “espresso my souling” dreams…
I got dreams like those cows have milk
Farms have cows mooing dreams
Hell I am poo-pooing dreams.
.What you got? GOT DREAMS?

peace ,hotwata n honey 2012

bitch…

“Be gentle with yourself,you are a child of the universe,no less than the trees and the stars. In the noisy confusion of life,keep peace in your soul.” Max Ehrmann

What made lips that kiss?

Form words of hatred

And hostility

You… cursed me.

Wrong mine

Mistreating she

By calling me

Outa the name  

Mommy gave me 

Shame on you

For calling me

Something so

Inflame

Something

Other than sweetie,

You called me a bitch 

Spoke to me like some trick

Am I not your baby?

You do remember me….

Just last night…

As I loved you, as you loved me

You called me beauty, lovely,

Fine as wine

However,

The minute thangs… did not roll your way

You come out of your face

Insulting me

With this, derogatory word

Bitch

Is what you said

You did not hear yourself. 

What you said

Was bitch

Your momma

And your momma’s

Momma too etc etc etc

Hell and your sister, daughter and you aunts too

And as you said this to me,

You said it to all the other “her’s”

In your history  

I am hearing more in the tone of your voice

Directed at me

I am surprised see 

And right know,

I am no longer feeling you

As you look at me with laughter in your eyes

Saying that shit to me

Thinking you hurting me

I am realizing

You hurting, you are damn self

You thought you had me

Reaching for the Vaseline

You thought you had me

Pulling off my earrings

However, hell, I am just

Putting them back on

Who is the bitch now?

Oh so you think this is funny like hell

“nigga” please…

Damn did you hear me?

You know

I take that back

Pardon me…

Forgive me

For I will be forgiving

And forgetting you

You will be missing me

You have brought me down

But you cannot keep me down  

Got me clowning on you

And being stupid too,

What

Now I am a hoe

Oh hell no

What is wrong with you?

What is wrong with this picture?

Hearing it on a video

Do not make it so

Make it right

Loving the beat and ignoring the message

Got you sleep

And brainwashed by the lyrics degrading

Don’t make it ok

I have been called a freak bitch hoe 

I am just not able to take it no more

You are in combat with me

With your words

Instead of loving me

Disrespecting me

Disrespecting them

You cannot affection ally

Call me, a bitch

Or tastefully

A hoe not possibly.

 

Peace,hotwata and honey